True that, it is not that I don’t give up but it is just the case that habits don’t leave me. The process of growing up happens in increments along that comes the time when the brain is surrounded by the elements of distraction and attraction. The older we grow the more subtle we come in terms of who we are and what we want to be.
Life becomes a routine of non-stop changes that always influence us to learn something new and subtract something from this equation of our daily routines. One such thing that happens to me each time that makes me feel low on myself is the emotions of not being able to fight back when it comes to replying back. The insecurities from the world around me always force me to be at ease with being relaxed to my surroundings. Being harsh to the people or rather the ones that I spend most of my during the day where I work, it simply feels not right and kind of perfect exposure. Something many of us definitely may not agree with this but it’s my own pure expression of how it works with me. Going back to the title that “Old Habit, Die Hard” – I simply wish to overcome this phase of being gentle to the people where they just feel like the boss, when they are not and not understanding that they have been in the shoes of their own mistakes but appreciating an acceptance is hard for those people.
As a child something I was told to be respectable to others while they are the member of your family, friends and strangers. Was that something wrong to grow up with. Something that I would not want to pass on to the next generation. There are too many questions that come to my mind whether it was all in my upbringing that I was not brought up with the wild face of life or is it just that these logics don’t work in the world where I live in now than from the world I grew up in. Habitats are definitely a huge influence on our habitats. To the same effect it is fairly visible all across different phases of our lives the habits that we grew up on and how they influence our present lives.
Do I want to change myself of being gentle to others in terms of how they are, In fact I do but I am always pushed back to my old habits of not being ludicrous and over killing my character. Heck, wait on – I just realised of my ex-gf(Not that I want to pick up on her but as an individual) she being not appreciative about the fact that she gets everything she wants and not able to thank in return. In return what I was to get is the impatient behaviour of her allowing her to push me over my limits of calm and subtle behaviour leading me to give her up completely. I was pushed from her because she simply was more aggressive to the fact that I am not aggressive. Same shit another day another place, it goes on. Each time I turn to myself thinking that it needs to be changed the old force gets over the new slowly without even me being aware of it. Self-changes to the character are the hardest to makes when the world surrounding us is ever in changing dimensions of good, bad & ugly. More or less call it – Fuck mate, not again. Have you ever been challenged by things thoughts or emotions with which you feel the same !! Have you won this battle between yourself and the changes of your mind? Did you ever think of killing your old Habits and really killed them.
Inspirations are not outside but inside our own soul & body. Some pick up a pen, some pick up a camera & some pick up a motorcyle to get that feeling of freedom to inspire themselves.
I pick up on all three – pen, camera & motorbike to write my own canvas of life.
Find your inspirations, in what inspires you and not what inspires others.
Beautiful, the first glimpse in the morning when I leave on my motorcycle riding to work. I could see the moon full of white light and I knew that it is going to light up nice and beautiful tonite. Busy life with traffic, rush, work and back traffic again I had completely forgotten the thought until I reached home to see that the moon is on the brink with the full life round circle showing its wonderful power of white peace. I love the feelings I get watching admiring looking and talking to the calm of this beautiful white untamed terrain. I could not hold myself and running out of my patience ran inside to collect my recent new addition 70-200F2.8 it was time to put it to use.
Heavy, at first but then that’s what I must bear for my passion to the likes of far and distant subjects. Well put to the test for the first fire on the new baby. The lens shall have a start with the peace of white calm love of my life – Moon in the wonderful dark clear skies 🙂
Heres some for you, Sharing doesn’t hurt its the way to live and love.
Feeling low on energy tonite but I shall recover and rise again to take on this life of usual routine. Power to you all as well.
For all those days when things dont come easy and the thoughts just stay still right there hanging by the thread of your emotions.
Beginning of another week another Maniac monday leading to another freaky friday evening.
Sometimes we miss that little bits around us. Something that surrounds us. Something that sparks us and makes us believe in ourselves. Do you know what we miss in all these years we grow older(ok, wrong word) mature instead. Simple things in life are often free but we don’t appreciate what we get(true human nature).
Crap innit, the traditional brit resonating sound to lot of things around us. Ha ha ha pun intended but that is how people say when they read the first line. There are answers to all our questions right around us. The key to everything that we do lies in spontaneity. We change ourselves to the surrounding world around us where we lose that touch of our very real self. Today was such an incident that I met this mexican friend(per se MO) she reminded me of myself so much. It is not too bad to see a reflection of yourself in someone who makes you connect back to yourself.
At first life is ever-changing, multi dimension space surrounded by all existing kinds of virtues including our own behaviours. We lose the space of our own very dynamic identity quite easily in the process of growing up. No, it’s not wrong but true to very many of the people I have seen and met. At the same time there are kind of people who exists around us that keep the ball rolling for the good sake.
Call them “Crazy People” they are the ones this world need the most and the most hard to find. It’s that moment in life that I met the third crazy nerd, my conjecture happens to be all around americans somehow. One that I met in India about 5years back, one that was about 6 months back in London and one today few hours back. One common thing to all these people was they had no element of being speculative, being calculative and being unrealistic.
“Craziness is the key to happiness” – hence proved. This is not just the matter of fact but this is the truth that happiness does not come in the form of money, material and metal. It comes in the form of being spontaneous, crazy and loving. I don’t want to be pedantic here for the sake of the people who are reading this but you all need to see it with your own eyes. This context is rather based on what I have experienced around me but I m sure there are people around us who can bring the happiness in the form of simple unexpected form. Sometimes all there is to happiness – is spontaneity of craziness.
I thank all these special people around me today for keeping me alive and reminding me of myself with the time. The process of growing up doesn’t have to be so hard that we lose the touch of our own self, happiness and little things that makes us happy. Dont forget that good goes a long way and everything else just comes back.
Love you all those who light up the lives of people around them, around the world & in our souls.