Sometimes we realise it too soon and sometimes it takes too long to realise that we have been a part of this change which is moving us all the time. The time that is restless, shapeless and boundless of structures in which it comes. The time I am talking here is the invisible bit that moves us with its quiet motion. We all are part of it and none of us belong to it. This double faceted motion of time is linked quite deep inside us – We just belong to it.
For a good long while since I have been back from my longest Europe trip – there has been subtle settlement in my life which makes me feel that I have sunk into the routines of life and wish to overcome it in every possible way. Something that has been a silent killer for most of things I have been doing in life so far. Photography, Travel and writing the main three pillars of creative, adventure self have seen a dull days in as long as I can remember. Time seem to have left me in a frozen moment with all that I used to be and has taken me into the next bit where I am more surrounded by the people of professions who have limits of how far they can take ahead into this fake success of helping you achieve a “title” that can define you. Knowing myself and this game of people that they make you part of this enterprise seems to kill me really hard. I know that I will break this very soon and won’t be part of this change that seems to be engulfing me deep in this unsound routine of enterprise model we all want to live in.
Being so close to the change and seeing myself change – I am entitled to accept that I don’t like how this world makes us shrink, stress and suffer in its ties to the employers, the materialistic world and money. I hate to be one of you but I know I am not one that belongs to this masses out there – the challenge is all about living besides the child within me is always reminding me to break away and be free again. I see that day is not far that I will be free from this uneasy want of being a modern slave engulfed to the needs and supplies of other big enterprise models who know how to exploit your good for sake of their profits for the little they can pay you back in the package of monthly salaries. We are all part of it somewhere but the perk of happiness is just as little as a holiday or a break once in few months. Just don’t see myself being in this strange monotony of routines that makes me a human with lifecycle of growing up and giving up. The stages from a child – to man to greatness everyone wants to be – to ultimate the deathbed. I don’t want to be but that is what the time makes one realise – the depth of your happiness is something that is within you. If you have a connection to yourself – you will seek the content of your happiness is not bound to be what the world wants you to be but what you can be yourself.
With love to life, I see that we all have the potential to be happy but many deny this because they are modern slaves of their double faceted mentality of being over smart to show their power over others. This takes us no where in personal growth but just makes slump to fight this race with our face in the fight to survive. I am glad to be back and seeing how the Changing Times make me see this life we all are part of. Some in glory of it and some in doom of it – we are in it somewhere. Be considerate of what you give to others because it all comes back to you from others in ways you may not realise. #BeHumble
2015 : The first post and something not like a resolution but rather like a need to change. I have been stuck in the customs of being the usual which is not me and I should get back to what I am used to be in my own skin. I know I am not one of the many who revel their lives in comfort of 9-5, luxuries of high profiles, endless followers and enjoying their fames of whatever they can mould their followers into.
The time to be who I am and where I belong is here and is right now running through my head, my blood and my body – CHANGE. I need this time for myself to get back to what I have loved doing over the years – Travel – Click – Be Happy – Be the Hippy Happy Nomad adventurer. The theme of life needs to come back to life. I have been stuck in the comforts of western life for too long. I need that to change to accept and respect what life has to offer. The comforts have made me become weak and nimble. I need to reconvene myself with the nature to be in sync with myself.
The project XC has taken over. I know I have this urge to go and travel so let this be NOW. This moment of now has been initiated. Last two weeks I have been digging around looking at where can I find this XC – the one that Walter Colebatch has been inspiring me about. I need this to happen and I want it to there. So for those who don’t have an idea what I am talking about – It is to do with searching a right motorcycle, in this case a BMW G650 Cross Country also known as XC. Once I have the right one, preparing it over period of time and then planning to go where my heart belongs – the real world away from the civilisation of masses and arrogant people which the cities turn them into.
I have been riding up and down the Indian Himalayas over the period of years that I spent in India in my earlier life. Since year 2000 till 2008 I have racked up several thousands of kilometers riding solo, with a friend, doing a two-up as well as doing endless longest rides of more than 24hours. Age does catch up and body does start to make you feel that you don’t have the same youth but the power of mind can take you anywhere again. So this is the moment to bring this change in life and do what I love. Prepare a motorcycle that can handle the Adventures, the rough terrains, those water crossings, the language barrier and the cultural clash over the years. I need to see these people with a difference – where life, culture and aspects of life make you feel the importance of your life. Riding in UK\EU over the last 6.5yrs is a cream that anyone who wants to do it can do it. The last 75,000miles in Europe has been an ease which didn’t include seeing the happiness, the adventure and the real friendly world – I don’t deny of some exceptions but generally – the world is not same when you live in the western perimeters of modern life. Everyone is connected but more disconnected than ever. The advent of technology has not connected but rather disconnected us from each other in a way bigger than anything else ever did in the past history of our existence.
Note to self :
XC secured on 08.01.15
XC Collection on 10.01.15
Yes, the year that was in a way not the year I would have liked it to be. It is gone and it is over.
2014 : The good riddance
Almost that time of the year when it’s time to look back and ponder. Things really moved and indeed made a whole lot of difference. Bringing it all back I guess this is where another year ends. It’s been a year of learning. Learning to understand the people, the games they play and how they make you feel. It’s something too late to understand but better now then never.
Few lessons to myself:
Rule #1 -You can’t make friends where you work. They are your mates who watch out your weaknesses to step on you so they can move ahead. You have colleagues who you can call friends till the point you are going for drinks after work, the team dinners and anything which includes socialising from the point of corporate socialising. Anything beyond is your foolishness to be aware of your environment. When you get told make friends, it has a sweet meaning – get your job done and move off. Just as you would in terms – make friends.
Rule #2 – Don’t bother to be in this Rat Race. The point well concluded of the first point this is a rat race. If you’re happy to be who you are you will sooner or later realise you have killed a part of yourself to be a rat in this race. This world is a one created to be watched played and executed to the needs of the greedy executioners who have the power of replacing, removing or multiplying you. The end result is a bigger understanding of how it all works. It’s like a game of chess but more so you can call it Politics of playful.
Rule #3 – Don’t kill yourself – You will understand that all those around you who appears, talk and openly say a lot more about being friends are more or less just interested in your strengths and weaknesses to be able to step on you. You start to generate this stress inside you to understand what is going around you. You start a battle which will kill you. Stop fighting and be who you are. You may not be that best for other expectations but hey you know it inside you. Work on yourself for yourself others will always be insistent on what they expect from you. Stop looking, listening and idolising others. Be your own best to be who you are. Lock this in every scenario of life.
Rule #4 – Acceptance- your life depends on it. Your whole attitude of living will work around this logic.
Rule #5 – Travel Travel Travel… and shoot shoot shoot the shutters… Time to look ahead.
You are, The Essence of this life. Do not waste yourself in understanding, explaining and regretting what you are not. You are the soul that has a meaning – learn what your potential is. Observe from your living life to improve and go beyond your sanctity of customs and comforts.
This life is a gift, you waste it thinking too much and doing too little. Think less and do more be it anything, even to put a bowl of water for birds or to carry yourself across the mountain – nothing is too little and nothing is too much as long as you have a determination in you. Don’t fade away by letting yourself drown in the comfort of your couch or your screens.