To die or to kill yourself – Easier option

We are born for a reason that we all have something to achieve in this life. We are born without a name, without any education and without any sense of good or bad. It is our own inner sense that makes us grow with regards to the outside world in which we socialize. A lot of out character revolves around who we want to be. Sometimes our parents influence us to be who we are and at others we have got inspirations from our surroundings(Friends or heroes) or the society.

What brings me here today is to share an experience from a friend who is in the middle of a job while noticing how life unfolds. She feels what she experiences is not just the dead people but how they decide to leave this life. She is a nurse in a hospital where she sees a lot of people in their old age deciding when to leave. There is a huge sense of misdoing or emotionally speaking “Karma” revelations cause a huge burden before they can leave. Dying is not easier when you are carrying a load of emotions from your life that needs to be emptied before you are allowed to leave.

Out of many such experiences one experience that counts towards all this is – A man in his late 80’s who knows he has lost this battle with life but to all sorrows is suffering because he wants to go and is unable to go. He expresses his sorrow of how he had two families at the same time without the other knowing of it. The tone in his voice is not melancholic but rather of a desperate need to put this out of his soul to someone who has got an ear to listen. She listens to the story of this man and soon after he closes his eyes – She knows his soul has departed and he has been liberated. In this life we get chances to commit a lot of things – some that hurt others while giving you a lot of joy and happiness but these alive stories of people on deathbed reveal only one thing. All the joys that you collect in this life for the misery and pain of others will come back to you in some shape or form unknown to accept that you committed things which need to be left behind.

Just to add on the above note, that was just one man but she has experiences of several such people who she has noticed and listened to before they give up this life. She says dying becomes a struggle once your body has given up and your soul is not letting it go. The worst of a kind is when none of your close ones want to come and visit you. Does this give you a scary feeling of what is being reflected here. Obviously the need to die is challenged and over ridden by your karmas of doings that you accumulated in this life.

One does tend to reach great heights but there is enough evil in reaching those great heights. This is always reflected in how you leave this planet. Not one but of many greats the one who closes his eyes in peace are the greatest of the souls. There are people on this planet that feel the need to kill themselves by abruptly stopping their lives is a way to get rid of their doings is not such a great idea either. You can make yourself force to die but your jar of endless negative karma is not left unanswered. It follows you regardless you kill yourself or you lie down on the deathbed. The sense of emotions here is more about respecting the life and not of expressing the need.

Tony Scott, the great film director decided to jump after the bridge in Los Angeles today. I don’t reckon this frees the soul but rather you left your soul in a jail that it will carry into the next phase of realm. We live here and we die here – the doings of our life are reflected in how we decide to expand or broaden our definition of living.

Base of all this and more is just a vision of how we all should emphasize on what we do and what implications it has on the lives that surround us. We must not be blinded for just ”Me” instead of us in this world. I give my respect to all these souls and spirits to be in peace and let the others rest in peace too. Shall we say – Peace, love and happiness prevail.

Power to revitalise

Love life, love yourself to experience what you can do. The more we grow the more our power of brain becomes susceptible to the changes around us. We tend to lose that adrenalin with our bodies mind and soul that pushes us to the limit but not to forget that we are humans we are like re-chargeable batteries. Regardless you are 20 or 25 or 30 the age barely matters because in the modern world the numbers just don’t count what really counts is what you can do to beat any of those numbers inside your head.
Living is reviving oneself of its own imaginary powers to experience that magic of life that can take us to the new environs and makes us feel come alive again. Whether you work 9hrs shift five days a week you deserve the weekend to be a crack on good to enjoy those well spent 5 days at work. In a way yes we all do that but what really makes you happy you should follow those instincts. I know from myself even a two days break is a way to run away and experience and add on miles to the map of my world. I remember when I was 20, 800kms trip for two days would simply be an easy target to just say I did something which made me feel happy. To follow our hearts it only takes us a little but we must sincerely follow what we like to make sure we breathe in our life that fills us with what we want. Freedom to your serenity is in your hands and head.

One such thing that swing into my head this past weekend was a road trip that was sugar coated with luxury of four wheels instead of two and I was not the one who was going to drive. For a change it makes a whole lot of difference when you are not in the pilot seat but rather a navigator. My friend JM took the charge to drive on this trip and make me her worthy co-pilot. The map was just a rough sketch in the beginning but we knew that we are heading to South-East England trying to cover as much coastline we can with not missing the chances of capturing the beautiful weather, cliffs, coasts and harbours.

Indeed we managed to do it pretty well along with doing some dangerous things which people our age don’t do. Staying awake half the night for not missing a single shot that can become a part of my fame if it reaches that frame in the next exhibition. You may not want to be on the white cliff sitting with your feet hanging down knowing there is no way back to life if we commit a mistake of slipping down from there. Yes, we did sit on the white cliffs of Beachy Head with our feet hanging down till our lust of adventure was satisfied.

Exploring the shores of Bexhill, Hastings and Sandgate was more of a simple eye candy with sun setting and the weather staying well below freezing. At the coldest during the day it was still -3.5C and reaching -1.5C at its best. Standing by the cliffs of Dover watching the sun go down and the ships leave the harbour with time-lapse interval shooting it only adds to the memory of things we did.  Heading towards Kent and experiencing our wonderful game of “Banana grams” sitting in Pub till we realize we must go and sleep. The night barely offered any relief with fresh snow sailing like cotton balls we start off to Ramsgate with freezing weather again daring the visit to the harbour allowing us to feel that chilly winds.

It never stops when you are crazy in your head. Walking down the old Marina and sipping hot tea in the sailor shop – worth an experience even though the Tea was not too good but just that location was. All the yachts sitting in the harbour made it look like a holiday for sailors which indeed it was – not many dare to be in the weather of below freezing in the sea. We had to head back without delaying ourselves too much. On the way back we wandered along the coast of Whitstable seeing colourful beach huts that simply change the views compared from summer skies to faded glory in snow covered white flakes. Finding out a place to warm ourselves up sipping hot tea and snapping pictures in the hot corner next to fireplace sitting in age old vanity leather chair.

 Amazing how you can explore and what all you can find in this wonderful world in the secret corners of unknown destinations. An old mill on the top of the hill with its wonderful wooden structure did not allow us to pass it without framing it in all possible angles till I gave up because of a full memory card while JM kept snapping and decided to give up knowing the light has gone below our desired needs. Inevitably the hard moments in photographers life is to miss the moments that are only once in that very environment. We chased the first rays of sun in evening on our way to Canterbury, Kent. Temperature was just above freezing as it reached 0.5C and we managed to see the Cathedral of Canterbury in the low light just before the darkness engulfed us. Not willing to let the time run away we simply wanted to go as much more as we can. Tempting desires but we have to live with what we have got. The light has gone off the horizon and the darkness mounted on the skies leaving us not much more but to head back. Driving on the motorways M20, M26, M25, M23 we just about finished another of our road trip.

Time and again, it is not even over yet but we know that the next trip is just around the corner in less than a month’s time. True but hard facts of life, when you know what makes you happy – don’t stop to live in the illusion of what others would want you to live in. You are for yourself and your power is for you to revive and live. The greatest regrets of people is that they spend all their lives living to other expectations and not living their own.

Enjoy life for the fact, you never know your expiry date 🙂 Today Tomorrow Time can’t be accounted for.